Life is so unfair. You work hard to take care of your family. Do the best you can to raise your children right. Make sure they have all the need and some of what they want. And for what? To end up being poked and prodded by nurses & doctors? To keep you alive? For what, to suffer? It’s not fair! To watch a loved one suffer. No thank you. I know I am a strong person but this I cannot deal with. I only hope that when I’m old that I’m healthy and can make decisions for myself. I only hope I have quality of life and am not just alive. I love life & my family & my friends! Sometimes I think too much! Sometimes when I look the strongest I’m actually at my weakest. Sometimes even the strong ones need a hug and a pat on the back. We need to know that no matter what happens, no matter how bad things get that my family and friends will be there! I know those who will and those who won’t. Life is so unfair that a seeming healthy elderly man has gone through so much in such a short time. I can only hope that he is comfortable and not in pain. And through all of this – isn’t just like a children to throw up on the school bus on the way to school. To have her teacher and the nurse call so that I have to leave my Dad’s bedside to take care of my child. Sometimes making the right decision is the hardest decision. I wish I could go back – even just for a day – to the easier life – the simple times. The good old days…
It’s that time of year when I go for my annual mammogram. This year I had to get a mammogram and sonogram due to the density of my breasts. So, on Monday evening I made the drive over to NRAD and did just that. The process is fairly quick and easy. I’ve been going for a few years now. My Mom had breast cancer twice and I need to make sure that does not happen to me. Self exams and yearly tests are the key to staying healthy.
Today, I got that phone call. The one where the person on the other end says, “I’m calling from NRAD, and we need you to come back for another mammogram & sonogram.” So naturally I got a bit nervous. She also said that it was due to the density of my breasts and it was mostly precautionary and not to worry. Let’s see, I have to wait until next Thursday to have the tests done again. Even though I am confident everything will be ok, there’s that little part of me that will worry. Worrying is not healthy and I usually turn to food for comfort. Definitely not a healthy choice for me. I have an addiction to food and am currently on a diet under the care of an awesome doctor! Of course, today was one of those days that I fell off & ate stuff I should not have. One day, one mistake. Tomorrow is another day.
And I want to see a lot more tomorrows….
“March comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb!”
What can you say about a month that is filled with so much stuff?! It starts with Purim on March 4th. Jewish people celebrate being saved from extermination in Persia. Daylight Savings began March 8th and St. Patrick’s Day – March 17th. The first day of Spring, according to the calendar was March 20th! Today, March 28th we had snow! That’s total madness to me. Granted, the snow is not stick anywhere, near me, but the fact that it snowed was enough to make me mad!
On to the real March Madness… The NCAA annual basketball tournament! 64 teams begin on Thursday, March 19 with the hope of making it to the Final Four & becoming the National Champion! BUT That’s not the real madness! It’s all the NCAA pools that take place. The office pool, the local bar pool, and then there’s the online pools. All these people, most who never spend a minute watching NCAA Basketball, fill out their brackets and hand over a few bucks in hopes of winning the money! Gotta love it… Gambling on college students, better yet, all the money the colleges make playing on National TV. The players, the college students, what do they get? What do they win? 64 teams, 3 weekends of some of the best basketball played this year & what do they win? 4 teams get to the Final Four & 1 teams wins the Championship! They get a trophy & that feeling of accomplishment, that feeling of euphoria that comes with knowing “you did it!” You’re the BEST NCAA basketball team this year! The gamblers, the ones who think they know it all, the ones that think they can predict what 64 basketball teams will do & what happens? You know who wins these pools? The one person who guessed the most winners correctly. Usually not the person who knows the most about NCAA basketball… That’s Madness!!!
How did you do? Did you win?
Lately, I find myself thinking just that, progress not perfection. I was introduced to this fabulous thought by someone I’ve come to admire and respect.
I’ve been lucky enough to meet someone who understands addiction. Not addiction to drugs or alcohol, but addiction to food. It does not matter what you’re addicted to – it’s all about how you handle the addiction and how to get better. I consider this person a friend and would like to think she feels the same.
Everyday I work towards making progress. Progress for me is learning to make good food decisions. To make the time to exercise. To drink water. To do something for just for me. It could listening to a great song, drinking a great cup of coffee (Starbucks) or even just a few minutes of quiet nothingness.
Everyday, make progress towards your goal, understand the process, and keep progressing. You may not get there as soon as you’d like to, BUT you will get there!
I woke up one morning before my alarm went off. Turned on the TV and began watching infomercials because that was all that was on. I came across Shaun T’s T25 infomercial and could not change the channel. I watched the whole show and ended up ordering the T25 workout. Not really sure if I would find time to do it, I figured if I spent the money & the DVDs arrived I would give it a try.
Monday the DVDs arrived and I was thinking about all the “stuff” I had to do everyday. The days went by & on Friday my neighbor, Mike, asked if I had started the T25 as yet. I said no & that I was planning on starting the next day. He said to bring it over and we could do the workout together. He had wanted to try it. A workout buddy, that would definitely be helpful to get me going. So, on Saturday morning I got myself together, walked across the street and we did the first workout. 25 minutes later, sweaty and thirsty, we completed the first workout. OMG! I felt good, tired, but pretty good. Sunday morning, I woke up sore but was determined to do the 2nd workout. At 9:00am I walked across the street & again Mike & I worked out for 25 minutes. A bit tougher, we got through it.
Due to scheduling issues, I was going to go it alone for the next few days. Since you only have to do 5 Days a week, Monday I took a rest. On Tuesday morning my alarm went off at 5:45am & I was sore but determined to get through the 3rd workout. Abdominals – 25 minutes of Abs? Could I do it? Yes! Core training, 25 minutes & I did it! Yeah for me. I went to work and the soreness started to set in. Getting up from my chair was somewhat painful. Today, I came home from work and did a quick change into workout clothes. Turned on the TV and put on the DVD player. In went DVD #4. Total Body workout. A quick 25 minutes later I was done!
While I am not a huge fan of working out at home, I have to say that Shaun T definitely has it right. 25 minutes and 5 days – I ‘m hooked!
SNOW… The four letter word that has been uttered more times this winter than I care to remember. I don’t mind winter usually, but this winter has been the worst. How many days did schools close? How many delayed openings did we have? One thing I am grateful for is my boss. Since we all live on Long Island he understands about school closings and delayed openings.
SNOW it’s been the subject of books, poems, and weather channel specials. The books are fun to read and the poems are a delight. I have never watched the weather channel or any channel showing a special about snow. I did love making snow angels, snow forts, and of course, snowme when I was a child. Today, I get to watch my children have the fun of making snow angels and snowmen.